So I'm at home, alone, well it feels like I'm alone but to be fair there's a possibility that 2 out of my 5 house mates (not counting me) could be in their rooms.
I'm home today. I feel like my boyfriend (who you guys are yet to name! and I'm still to tell you about us and how we met...) is fed up with me. I walked home alone, and he only called to confirm I'm staying there...
It feels like all my people are leaving me behind. I haven't done any school work since Thursday last week though I do have to do an assignment due tomorrow morning.
I hate feeling like this. I want to just sleep the feeling off but I have work to do, and I'm hungry, though I don't have the appetite to eat... I want to cry but I don't have the tears to spill. It's a physical pain, I can actually feel it, and cheesily enough, it's in my chest...
Growing up must be so lonely, with people you thought were tight bonds just loosen and break free. Relationships are painful things, more painful than in your youth. And mine were pretty painful back then at a certain point...
I perhaps rely on my boyfriend too much for support, I know he has his own issues and he's not here, you are. Thanks...
I don't know anymore... I don't know. I'm trying to toughen up but... But it's so hard. I want to be open and free but life is telling me that's not possible... I don't want to play games anymore, no one is playing along... I don't know guys... I know I need to put life into perspective. I am alove and well and all that good stuff that goes with it that me and my family, all healthy can share... But when you're in this situation it feels like everything you know? Like your pain is the most painful emotion out there and no one understnads, even though they do.
The tears are welling up now, but I've blinked most of them back - Lol. *Sniffle - I'm giving you the visual so you can be here... Pathetic...
So I guess all I can do is focus on this homeowrk and get it done. Otherwise this typing will only get sadder...
Thanks for listening,
Till Later,
T xx
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Awww. Poor baby. It's okay to feel down sometimes. If you feel like you're relying too much on boyfie, then you probably are, and if that's the case, then you wanna ease up on him a bit, k? If you need to cry, then cry. U'll feel better afterward.
awwww darling!
First - HUGE HUG!
Second - Go to your bedroom
grab your phone and set the alarm for 30 minutes from now. Turn off the lights, slip under the covers.
WEEP. WEEP. and WEEP some more. Or engage in some self love (lmao). Which EVER one you do WILL make you feel berra. I swear it works ALL DA time. I swear.
When your alarm goes off
where your most comfortable outfit and do your work. Remember, you are stronger than you think and you are BEAUTIFUL!
how can u blink ur tears back. just try to relax and take things easy.. everything ll be alright
.....everything ll be alright
You will be okay
cry if you want to
laugh if you want to
dance if you want to
with life you have to write your own script
or rewrite it
you will be fine
awwwww honey!!!!!
life cud suck at times but its up to u to turn that around..do what makes u happy..retail therapy..seeing a movie..getting spoiled at a spa..u know, ish like that!
and please go and get urself checked at the hospital, just so u know if there's anything wrong with ur chest..
i think u shud talk to ur boyfriend(i cant think of a name right now for him, sowee..lol)..he shud know how he's making u feel..
take care lovie..
kisses n hugs!!!
Hope you feel much better now
We could talk about it if you want...
It's unhealthy,emotionally wise,to repress sad feelings...especially tears...They help to cleanse the soul...Shed your tears dear...
Don't thank us...we listen...
It's what we do...it's what we are here for...
hope u r ok, hon???
happy easter!
mwah!
whenever you lose something that you had before there is always a greiving period
i got news honeychile
you are human
get used to it
MIA much? Come back!
Hope you've been well xx
where have you been?
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